So sitting in my room, with the seventh harry potter book playing in the background by request of signe, i have realized some things (I don't know if hp affected this, puhaps, i mostly just like to add details about it to my narrations :). Anyway, i repeat, i have realized some things... Unlike every other summer, this one doesn't really deserve the name, or at least all of the characteristics associated with it. All the previous summers of my life from age 6 and on have begun with the end of school, and ended with going right back to what i hated. I was able to enjoy summer because i knew that in a couple months, i would have to go back to pencils, notebooks, binders, folders and all the other shit that comes with the beginning of school. I had all my friends here, didn't have to work and was able to go on vacations that were all planned for me.
However, this summer has consisted of about 1,543,589 trips to minneapolis for various reasons; retrieving people from the airport, taking people to the airport, attending graduations, attending graduation parties, and other things that i don't really remember. Other contents: the thrilling activity of trying to come up with a job, realizing that was about impossible, and making the decision to work for the pond boss.
This summer is almost like a three month long study hall, a period of time that has to happen, and one in which you might accomplish something, maybe... a period of waiting, wasting time until the things you want to happen, happen, whatever they may be.
Jannie, even though i knew this all along, i never really realized it until you were gone: your presence in this void of a town brought a lot of excitement, and i mean that in a good way :) Laura and i had gotten pretty good at finding entertainment, but having you here made it so much easier. It's strange not having you here
I don't know who all reads this blog, but i think i can safely say that i miss you all
I'm borrrrrrrred
1 comment:
"a period of waiting, wasting time until the things you want to happen, [sic] happen, whatever they may be"
this is a lovely sentiment, and one to which i can relate verily. i would even venture to state that is a first example of a largely new and terrifying sort of time through which most people traverse to varying degrees. The only phrase that comes to mind is "just wait" the sine curve of excitement in life seems to slacken and bunch unpredictably. And now, though you may speak less French than you like, you will have excellent perspective concerning ennui.
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